Our New Home

We’ve been in our new home in Cobble Hill, Brooklyn for over a month and we love it. The actual move was a total bitch and it took us several days sans child (he was at his grandparents house in Connecticut) to make the apartment safe and ready for our son to come home to.

When people ask how our new place is I say it’s great, it is, but coming from seven years of living in a full service building I’d be lying if I didn’t say it was also a big adjustment. The three bedroom apartment with a deck is a total upgrade as far as apartments go but the one floor walk-up with no super has been a complete downgrade in buildings.

Mylo on our deck which has no furniture, yet.

For instance, we are responsible for sorting our recycling and taking the trash to the curb three times per week in our new home. In our old building we were one of 320 apartments in which anything you threw out went down a garbage chute at any time of day you wanted. In our new home recycling only gets collected on Mondays. I can tell you from two weeks of some of our refuse getting rejected that the Department of Sanitation is strict when it comes to having the right bags, the right twine and the right square foot of curb for your trash.

Now that we have our garbage routine down there is a nice ebb and flow to our lives here on Bergen Street. We’re a little worried about what the empty storefront down below will be. If it’s a bar we’re screwed but if it’s a burger joint as it’s rumored to be, even as vegetarians we could probably make do. But of course a shoe store that closes at 8pm would be the ideal downstairs neighbor!

Another awesome thing about our new home is that my friend Scott from junior high school, his wife Shelly and their 10 month old daughter Olivia, live upstairs from us. It’s been a blast. We drink wine in our pajamas, not to mention it’s proved convenient when we’ve locked ourselves out of our respective apartments. Mylo gave Olivia her first kiss the other night — my heart melted and Scott’s raced as he watched his little girl squeal in delight. Never in my life did I think our children would be playing together, much less stealing precious moments together. To tell you that mine and Scott’s relationship growing up was one built on a lot of joking around is an understatement. But it was also shaped and somewhat marred by the tragic loss of a mutual friend. I am so glad he is back in my life and of course it helps that I adore Shelly, too!

Mourning Our Vacay

Back to reality. We came back from vacation two days ago and I’m lamenting returning from this trip more than any other vacation I have ever been on before. And we only went to Las Vegas! We’re not talking the tropics here people (just the Tropicana).

Undoing my unpacking. Never even knew that was possible.

But this WAS our first real vacation with our son Mylo, and it was a family vacation at that. And by family I mean five other people and 10 hands who helped with all the demanding baby needs! And it is perhaps that which I miss the most.

But it wasn’t all easy-peasy. After all, we were hit with a time difference that took it’s toll on Mylo the first two nights. My husband Jason wrote about his late night forays on the Vegas strip trying to coerce our son to sleep. Did I just use the words “sleep” and “Vegas strip” in the same sentence?!

The boy has become a rapid ball of energy with fierce opinions, amazing physical strength and the stamina of a marathon runner. Every time I turn around he is disheveling the cabinets, jars, drawers and potted plants in our home. Yes it’s amusing but it’s also downright exhausting.

The peaceful days of cooing at my newborn baby, of holding him in my arms and planting gentle kisses on his face, are gone. These days, Mylo only sits still long enough to breastfeed and even then, usually has ants in his pants.

Sometimes I want to run away from home, if only for a second. Sometimes I daydream about cultures in which the extended family aids in child-rearing. Other times I just want to return to Vegas… with my family. Never thought I’d say that.

The family.

My Community

We’ve been very fortunate in the childcare department. Since the day my son Mylo entered the world this past August, there’s been a gaggle of grandparents surrounding him and supporting us. And we honestly could not be doing it all without them.

I am so very lucky and so very grateful that I got to spend the first seven months of my son’s life with him. We made new friends, went to the movies, hung out in bars and most of all, we bonded. My time off with my son has not only enriched my life, but has affirmed my opinion of this country’s lack of  standard, paid parental leave for moms and dads — which pales in comparison to Canada and European countries.

Because we’re not ready to put Mylo in daycare and because we wouldn’t be able to entertain a nanny salary right now, we’ve relied on our families for help.

Even though I haven’t worked in over one year I’ve figured out that I don’t want to be at home full-time. Yet I also don’t want to go back to work full-time. I know, not a ton of options out there for moms like me, but I recently took on a new project (that I have yet to unveil here on my blog) that will allow me to do just that. But because of this new project and Jason’s freelancing work, our lives just went from somewhat managed to insanely busy.

Thanks to my mom who has a demanding job in academia, my father who recently retired and my mother-in-law who keeps a busy social life, we’ve been able to carry out our zany and changing schedules from week-to-week. Not only do the grandparents drive two to four hours round trip to see their grandchild, but they also come bearing food for us to stockpile in our fridge. They keep us sane and they keep us well fed.

Granna Dianna, Mylo and The Bug.

And while these three forces have been very present in Mylo’s life since birth, I have only recently seen the value in the special bonds that are being forged. When one of the grandparents comes through the door he squeals with delight at the sound of their voice – even before he sees their face. He reaches out to be held by them. They play special games. My dad speaks to him exclusively in Arabic. My mother-in-law speaks to him exclusively in French.

I should also add that this has been great for me. I am learning a lot about letting go and handing the reins over to someone else — which for a neat-freak and self-proclaimed perfectionist, isn’t always easy. It has been invaluable for me to leave the house a few times a week to go out and be “Reedu” and not just a mom with a ton of responsibilities.

Horsin' around with Sidi.

And yet I am reminded even more of how valuable these friendships are following the recent, back-to-back news of two of our family members being diagnosed with cancer. I was 22 when my grandmother died, with whom I was very close. My son would be so blessed to have one, if not ALL of his grandparents in his life for that many years.

Of being a grandmother, my mom told me once, “It’s everything I thought it would be and more.” Another time my dad asked me if I thought he’d live long enough to have a drink with his grandson. And my MIL yearns to show her grandbaby her beautiful garden in France.

First bath with Grandma Claire.

I am so touched the grandparents feel great happiness in having an active role in my son’s life. He is one lucky and loved little boy…

What about you, are you at home full-time with your baby(ies)? If so, how do you find relief? And if you work full-time I’d love to hear how you manage it all. Please share!

My Blog’s New Look

As you can see, I’ve unveiled a new look for my blog!

Around this time last year I posted an ad on Craigslist looking for someone to transition my blog from Blogger to a self-hosted WordPress blog.

The move was successful but my blog-guy took the money and ran and offered little to no post-transition support.

Thanks to Google and YouTube I was able to make some minor changes but not before spending many days and nights banging my head against the wall. It was time for me to be realistic. Cracking code wasn’t exactly my thing.  After all, I majored in Journalism, NOT C++!

It was during a recent, nightly head banging that I asked on Twitter how to change the size of the # of comments, you know because I get SOOO many. No really, I don’t, but I do dig how it looks when the number is bigger. I didn’t expect anyone to respond but then Dave Clements of Do It With WordPress Tweeted me down from the ledge.

I never figured out how to change the CSS class even with Dave’s instructions but I did begin talking to Dave about going in a new direction with my blog. We decided to move to a different framework and I chose a theme which would allow me to control the majority of fonts, coloring and sizing.

So now I’ve got a second blog-guy, one who is extremely accessible and reasonable and I’m really hoping he’ll stick around! If you’re ever looking to do something with Worpdress, or well, Do It With WordPress, definitely contact Dave.

I would be remiss if I didn’t give the ultimate shout out to my husband Jason for designing my logo/header. The Brooklyn Bridge has a TON of scaffolding on it right now so Jason actually sat there in Photoshop and removed each iron bar after each iron bar. Tedious and time consuming and not at all easy in this demanding household. Not to mention that I drove him bonkers while trying to decide on just the “right blue” in Photoshop’s vast color palette.

The iconic Brooklyn Bridge is undergoing a bit of restoration.

I look forward to playing around with my new blog. Just bear with me as you see some things change, because as you may or may not know I am a bit decision-phobic and tend to change my mind more than once before settling. (I’m talking about my blog of course, not my husband.)

Elephant Stomps on GoDaddy CEO

Well, not exactly, but GoDaddy.com CEO’s recent killing of an African elephant DID stomp on his business.

I’ve always been looking for a reason to jump ship from the web-hosting company where I own eight domain names, including this one. And if their Super Bowl commercials featuring scantily-clad women wasn’t reason enough, then shooting an elephant sure as heck is.

The company’s CEO, Bob Parsons, recently shot an elephant in Zimbabwe and posted the graphic, misspelled subtitled footage in a video for the whole world to see, and then dubbed it a “humanitarian” expedition.

Note that I’m intentionally NOT linking to the video which shows the CEO and other hunters looking over a farmer’s damaged crops, shooting at elephants in the night. The subtitle which was evidently not spell checked reads: “Team waits until the elephant are close then turns on lights duct tapped to their rifles & opens fire.” Parsons is then shown smiling while posing with the dead bull. The video depicts “hungry villagers” the next morning stripping the dead animal of its flesh while donning GoDaddy.com hats. The most boorish part of the video is set to AC/DC’s “Hell’s Bells,” and is nothing more than an unscrupulous, self-promoting plug for the company.

If only this poor elephant could rise from the dead and wipe that grin off Bob Parsons face.

Parsons, who’s second elephant hunt this was, told myFox Phoenix that he is not ashamed of what he did. “All these people that are complaining that this shouldn’t happen, that these people who are starving to death otherwise shouldn’t eat these elephants, you probably see them driving through at McDonald’s or cutting a steak. These people [Zimbabwe villagers] don’t have that option.”

While I don’t condone the killing of any animal for human consumption, whether it be cows at slaughterhouses to hunting elephants, what I think is worth questioning is the need for an American CEO to carry out this gruesome task for the African villagers while shamelessly promoting his company.

After reading that Namecheap.com, a GoDaddy.com competitor, recently ran a promotion to raise money for the endangered elephants in Africa I decided it was time to leave GoDaddy. Coupon code (BYEBYEGD) allowed up to 10 domain transfers at just $4.99 per domain, $1 per domain of which was transferred to Save the Elephants. Namecheap raised $20,433 for the elephants in Africa.

Even though I missed out on Namecheap’s promotion (and boy do I love a good deal), it’s still worth jumping. To join me in transferring your domain from GoDaddy.com to Namecheap.com, click here.

What Parsons does not know is that elephants are extremely intelligent, sensitive animals, and that there are strategies that exist to protect them which combine community and creativity. As Stephanie Feldstein wrote on Change.org last November, conservationists and farmers have devised plenty of clever and harmless methods of keeping elephants away from crops.

For example, draped fences made out of string first dipped in chili-infused grease (because elephants don’t like chili peppers), or elaborate cowbell systems that trigger wires to warn when the intruders arrive, are just two ways to preserve villagers’ crops and preserve an ancient species who is highly social and intelligent.

It’s doubtful, but perhaps next year Parsons will trade in his rifle for a cowbell.

A Song With My Son

My husband Jason and my son Mylo have a song. When I saw them dancing around the room to it for the first time I was touched. Moved. And jealous. Mylo’s daddy’s best dance move resembles that of “a hold” on a football field. Mommy on the other hand, well let’s just say that I’ve been known to cut a rug. A damn pretty good one, too!

Because Mylo adores dancing and because I don’t want him to look like Lawrence Taylor on the dance floor, it was imperative that I find a song to dance to with my son.

There is the song that I heard over and over again when I was in labor for 30 hours: “Heartbreak Warfare” by John Mayer. The word “war” in the same sentence as my son? I don’t think so. And let’s face it, John Mayer’s a douche.

There’s “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star,” but that’s what I sing to him while I’m nursing him before bed at night.  I wasn’t feeling that one either.

I was at my friend’s store the other night in the city and there, over the Pandora radio waves, I heard it: “Starlight” by Muse. It’s upbeat, it’s fun and the words are poignant.

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I hold my son in my arms and twirl around the room while his lips are pursed in a perma-smile. Then there’s our other move where I hold his hands and he shakes his hips while stomping his feet on the ground screaming with delight.

“You electrify my life…” That is for sure.

Dancing to Starlight with my boy.

My Tattoos & Piercings

I was recently inspired by Kate from Mommy Monologues to document my forays with my tattoos and body piercings. Ok, so just the piercings were forays. The tattoos it turns out, are permanent.

I was a bit of a wild child growing up. Some of what I am about to detail may surprise you. But if you like me, it will make you wish as I do, that if and when I have a daughter some day, the apple will fall very far from the tree.

When I was about 16 years old I asked if I could get a belly button ring. The answer was a firm and astounding NO. But I persisted, as I tend to do with most things I really want in life and so my mom finally made a deal with me: give up the cigarettes and we could talk about it. I wasn’t addicted, but I enjoyed smoking so that never happened.

While my father was working abroad during part of my junior year of high school I made the very foolish mistake of getting my lip pierced. When my mom saw it she advised me to remove it before my dad got home and ripped it off my face for me. When my lip swelled and became the reason why I couldn’t consume solid foods, I took it out willingly.

My first tattoo.

Then came my first tattoo. I was 16 when I started lobbying for body art and 17 when I was finally given the green light. My mom even came with me to make sure the needles were sterile and colors were clean. And since you have to be 18 to legally get a tattoo, even with a parent’s consent, I used my friend’s ID.

My first tattoo is worthy of it’s very own blog post, which I will do some day — there is that much material about it!

I loved my first tat and the accolades I received from friends at school. I loved it so much I went out a few weeks later, WITHOUT my parent’s knowing, and got a second. No ID necessary that time, my first tattoo was proof enough.

It would be months before my folks noticed it and as expected, they were extremely disappointed in me.

Whether it was my impulsiveness or the fact that I went behind my parents’ backs, I can honestly say the second tat was a regret and a mistake. Something that cost $60 to put on cost $900 to take off when I was in my mid-20′s.

Bye Bye Birdie

I was a freshman in college when I got my tongue pierced. The parentals weren’t thrilled about it but I was over 18 and it wasn’t visible on my face . I can’t recall exactly when I outgrew the tongue piercing but lucky for me (and my family), I did.

When I was 23 I got my third tattoo and even though I didn’t need my parents consent, my dad came with me. My father and I were getting matching tats, mine on the small of my back, his on his arm. Mine says “Palestine” in Arabic writing, his reads “Palestine, my love.”

I’ll never forget the guy who inked us. He kept wiping sweat off his forehead and when I asked if he was ok he told me, “I’ve tattooed boyfriend and girlfriend. I’ve even done mother and son, but never father and daughter. Is he cool?” he asked gesturing towards my dad. I was like yea dude, so cool.

I’m not sure how cool my dad would be though if he knew about my last and final piercing. Not long after I got my third tattoo I got my nipple (GASP!) pierced after a night out on the town in New York City with some girlfriends.

What started out as a drunken dare actually wound up being a lot of fun — especially as I went topless on beaches throughout Spain that summer. But like the tongue ring, I eventually outgrew the nipple ring not long after I met Jason – my now husband – and fell in love.

Today, as a breastfeeding mom, I marvel at my nipples’ real function, and shake my head at how stupid I was.

So, I’ve been thinking. If I have a daughter who comes to me and asks for a belly button piercing before she’s 18, I might have to oblige her!

In all honesty, I have NO idea how I’ll handle the whole tattoo and piercing thing. Have you thought about how you plan to? Please share!

 

My Tsunami Dream

I have always been a dreamer. I dream vividly and wildly when I sleep. Sometimes I remember every detail, other times I don’t.

Sometimes I laugh out loud in my sleep. The first time my husband Jason ever heard this he was convinced I was acting. But I wasn’t. When he finally got me to snap out of it I just rolled over and was deep in REM sleep once again. The next morning I had no recollection of it whatsoever.

Every once in a while I have a nightmare.

Last week Jason and I confided our deepest darkest nightmares in one another. Mine is about airplanes exploding and often feature my brother in them. Sometimes I am with him, sometimes I am not. The exact details of these nightmares are vague and for that I am grateful as they are always troubling and very disturbing.

Jason’s nightmares are based on a tragic tsunami that comes barreling down our street in Brooklyn.  It’s a frantic and heartbreaking race to usher his family, furbabies included, to safety.

Well wouldn’t you know that my husband recently gave me his tsunami dream.

Early last Tuesday I had a very upsetting dream about a tsunami that was heading right for the high rise building we lived in. It was our home but yet we were some place foreign, possibly Australia. Emergency alarms had been sounding in the distance and I frantically began to comb our apartment for things to bring with us although I don’t know where we were going.

I am certain the recent tragedy in Japan and the around-the-clock news coverage of it has played a part in my dream, as did Jason’s neuroses. The high rise building likely signifies the condominium we put money down on in 2008 but have been battling to get out of .

The fact that I contemplated packing jars of baby food in my dream but then realized I didn’t need to because I was nursing could go either way. Either I am grateful I am still nursing or I felt helpless that in the face of tragedy, I had to be a source of comfort and nourishment for my son.

My grandmother’s gold bracelet also had a cameo in my dream. When I went to put it on the latch wouldn’t close, my hands were shaking and it dropped to the floor. And then there’s The Bug, our cat. I cornered her in the bathroom to get her into the carrier but she fled. Gold bracelet. Black cat. Two things i love that I would have to leave behind.

The climax of the dream was when I looked out the window and saw the mother of all waves approaching. I was on the phone with my mom and Jason had his back to the windows and was dressing the baby. I remember screaming “hold the baby, hold the baby,” and then I woke up.

I can actually hear you all unsubscribing me from your readers right now. I promise though, I am not a dark person.

When I was pregnant I felt I was carrying a girl but dreamed it was a boy, three separate times. When I was nearing full-term I dreamed I gave birth to a black cat. See, I’m not the least bit dark I tell ya.

I apologize in advance if any of you have a tsunami dream after reading this. And of course if you dream you’ve given birth to a black cat, I apologize for that, too.

Do you have a nightmare of your own you’d care to share?

Blackberry for iPhone

My husband Jason is a happy man but I miss my buttons.

Since the iPhone came out in June 2007 , Jason had been asking to get an iPhone. The answer was always no, though, not because I’m mean, but because we don’t have AT&T.

A self-proclaimed Apple-addict, Jason’s prayers were finally answered with Verizon’s release of the iPhone 4 this past February.

A week ago today we traded in our Blackberries for iPhones. Well, we didn’t exactly trade them, we had to upgrade and pay the hefty upgrade fees of course. Grrr.

I wanted to wait a week before writing a post about my thoughts on the big life change, and so here I am. I’m loving the iPhone but still missing my buttons. I adore the multitude of apps and the clarity of the photos but it’s a struggle to text or email typo-free with speed, something I was a whiz at with my Blackberry.

My new friend.

Perhaps THE BEST thing that has come out of replacing our Blackberries with the iPhones is that my son Mylo has no  interest in our new phones! (My thinking is that he misses the buttons, too.) I wrote in an earlier post here about Mylo’s obsession with my Blackberry.

I actually  bought Mylo a klunky, plastic, Fisher Price Smartphone to sate his appetite for phones. Let’s just say it became yesterday’s news five minutes after buying it. So, because I now have an iPhone, Mylo has inherited my former Blackberry. Which just goes to show that if you gnaw and slobber on something long enough, you can have it!

Giving Up Bread for a Week

I love bread. It’s in my Middle Eastern blood.

I love whole wheat bread, foccacia bread, garlic knots and croissants. It’s safe to say there is not a day that goes by that I don’t eat bread.

And well, I live in New York City, where there’s s something in the water that makes our pizza rock and our bagels rock, too. And lord knows how easy it is in this city to grab a slice and a bagel.

The old Reedu, the one who ran 40 – 50 miles per week could afford to eat all that bread. But the new Reedu can’t seem to get rid of every last pound of her pregnancy weight. The new Reedu only has time to run about eight miles per week at best, and the new Reedu is sick of feeling sluggish all the time. So she’s throwing in the towel on bread. For a week.

And now writing in the third person will end.

I told my husband Jason about my ban on bread after our four mile run over the Brooklyn Bridge this morning. Hopefully he’ll make my withdrawal period – because there will be one – easier by joining me.

It’s a big move on my part, not just because I love bread but because I don’t buy into fad diets. That’s exactly why I am not giving up carbs for a week. Besides the fact that it’s a proven scientific fact that your body needs carbs, I believe in eating what you want if you exercise regularly. And if exercise isn’t your thing or if your busy schedule doesn’t allow for it, then eat what you want but just keep it in moderation.

I’ll still be consuming grains and wheat through other yummy things such as rice and cookies (I allow myself two a day). But there will be no baguettes, no bagels, no pizza and no whole wheat toast for an ENTIRE week.

What’s the point then?

To lose a couple of pounds and to just feel better. To see how my body responds to not being bogged down by all that processed and refined sugar.

Have you ever given up something you love very much? If so, what was it and for how long?